So Im not going to lie. This week was kinda weird for me. After seeing you guys on Skype it reminded me how much i miss you. And i started to think about how much time I really have left. And to add to it again. One of my other really good friends from the MTC is going home this next week. He has been having a lot of problems with his knees. He cant really walk around to much anymore so he is going home. Just seeing so many people going home the last few weeks has started to make me a little sad because i started to think about how much i actually want to go home also. But you know what..... I guess that's part of the sacrifice. If the mission wasn't hard or make us sad or mad or any of the thousands of emotions that we feel here how would we become the men God wants us to be. How could I become the person you all are waiting for me to become. Or who i'm waiting for myself to become. We have to have struggles. Clay told me a few months ago something that has sticked with me so far. He said," There's no growth in the comfort zone and no comfort in the growth zone."
So this week we didn't do a whole lot. Well more like i didn't do a whole lot. Because Elder Wylie cant more around a whole lot because of his knees i have been hanging out with him until he can go home. So right now im feeling a little drained from the spirit from the lack of doing contacts and teaching lessons. Its so crazy how that can make such a huge difference to me. Honestly i feel like im not fulfilling my part as a missionary but some times you have to just take a step back and look at the whole picture and for this situation right now it just how it has to be. I think God makes us feel that way so i have a drive to never be a slacker while im out here on my mission. Every day i have things that just sit and eat at me that i know i need to do better. And im so glad for that. That's how I become better. I guess we could Probably call that the Holy Ghost. Im pretty sure that's what his job is. But that's actually one gift I am so glad I have. As long as i keep trying every day to be a little better i'll slowly become that person God is waiting for.
Well back to what i did this week...... The transfer is coming up on Monday so i started to get everything ready for that. All the people going home and all the newbies coming in. I have buss passes for every single missionary that is being transfered that i had to buy. And just a lot of little things that had to be done. So long story short... It was a crazy week but will be over probably around Wednesday.
But that's about it so i ll leave it at that.
So i love you all!!!!
Love Elder Ruesch